Soulmate...

What is soulmate mean?

Is it your Mr.Right or Ms.Right?

Or someone just pass by you and you didn't realize?

Beside you is it your soulmate or just a people that pass by your life? No one know how is the future..maybe now you feel very happy together with your boyfriend...but in future no one know do you still together with him or another people?

Some others couple together almost 7 years but when the time they are married is another person that only know each other 1 year..feel really weird right? But its really happens in the real life..how can a 7 years to compare a 1 year? Maybe that is what soulmate mean..mean that a long relationship in the future not really will still maintain like now..but not all the relationship will be same like that..so we have to appreciate what we having now and feel satisfied with your love one...even there is already pass or having now,we also have to be happy to receive what our love one done for us..because we don't know after today tomorrow will become how..

I never regret what I'm having now in my relationship eventhough both of us always argue or done somethings that make each other angry..I hope I'm choosing the right people and also my soulmate...and I don't wish that case will happen between our relationship..

Why do you always suspect me?

I really don't understand why Ken always suspect me,did I do anything wrong? Sometimes I really tired that he always asking me the same question...sometimes he says he just joking and not really ask seriously 1 but I still feel he always using the joking as a plead to ask all this question..

Haiz..I know he care about me that's why he will like that..last time I also used to be like that but now I already try to change not to be like that..he told me couple must trust each other and why he will like that?

I really hope that he can understand me more...because of him I really seldom go out with others boy..not seldom is totally don't have..and I don't have many boy's friend..I'm not blame him control me is I know why myself want to do like that..

Promises

That day when he fetch me,he told me that afternoon he went out with his girl's friends...I know is a good things that he told me honestly..Actually I not angry,but why he always like that?
Why he always break the promise,after break the promise only he said I can do that also..I really very disappointed that he always break the promise..not the first time,I already try to forgive him and trust him more..
Why he keep on like that? I know I got do wrong before I know he didn't keep in heart..but I also hope I wont keep in my heart..but cant,is because he promised me before so I cant forget so once he break the promise I will keep in heart and hard to forget..
I really very disappointed and sad..I dont wan he promise me anything..I want is not just a sorry after break the promise..if you really cant do that.. PLEASE dont promise me..

Confusing...

Last monday I passed up my resign letter to my boss's sister...because I still in contract so she need to go back and discuss with my boss...
The other day,my boss's sister came with his boyfriend who is working in our company marketing department...he came and talk to me and ask me why i wanna resign...after the discussion with him,he show me a letter and writing that my company will revised my salary...when I received I'm shocked because my boss raised me RM500,she never raise a staff that much...so I decided to stay back here and to reject the desa park city beauty salon...
Before that I really confusing which one to choose,which one is better...but now since my boss raise me so much so I decided to stay here...finally I got the answer...

Why we must be like that??

I'm really sad because I lost a friend..a friend that can chat with me and share my problem with him..but if he want to be like that I will follow what he said..
We are good friend..when I not happy or sad I will share with with him..sometimes I argue with my boyfriend I don't know who I can chat with I will tell him what we happen..he will chat with me on phone till midnight..make me feel better..
But one day he told me he can't treat me as a normal friend because he likes me..I was shocked at that time and don't know what to do..I say we can be good friend just like nothing happen before..but he say I very selfish and I don't care his feeling because he can't treat me like last time how he treat me..the feeling is not same if keep on like that he will more suffer..
Is true i shouldn't be so selfish so we choose not to contact each other anymore..maybe give him sometimes he can forget about that...

Damn tired...

This few days I really feel very very tired and unhappy...when I'm trying to forget the thing,my mom keep on saying me choose to trust Ken and don't trust my sis...I really no idea to prove that who is lying and who is saying the truth...she didnt help me to think but still saying something not nice..

I really no idea I just keep on crying this few night..the question keep on appear in my mind...I'm so suffer and feel tired in this problem...I don't wan anyone don't like my bf espcially my family..after this thing happen they keep on saying what he not good...for me I really hope that I can have a prove that can let me settle everything...

Nobody I can chat with,nobody understand me...why this things will happen between my bf and my family...2 also the most important person in my life...who can teach me what to choose??

Sometimes I try to stop the tears come out...but I really not as strong as people think...I'm just a girl...maybe sometimes I need to act I'm strong but sometimes i also will become a normal girl...a girl that need somebody to protect...

Why?

Today my mom told me that my sis Evelyn tell her my bf Ken ask her to be his girlfriend for 1 day before...at the moment I was stunt and don't know how...just thinking is is a joke? She told me is real,some more she said Ken love another girl also when I was together with him...we always argue is because of her...

Before that my friend that working with the girl she told me before..that time I also ask before Ken but he say don't have this thing happen,because the girl is already got bf and he no love her before..but now my sis told me that he bring her go the girl shop before and said he love the girl before and wan to chase her...

Why suddenly I can't think about anything..I don't know who say is true or false...

Actually many times i already choose to trust Ken..but the same thing like keep on forcing me to suspect him..I really don't know what for my sis wan to lie me...

I suddenly think back last time he did many thing I also choose to trust him...just like last time in friendster he wrote a testi for a girl and wrote love ya and miss ya...after the argument I still choose to trust him..I really started to think am I choosing the right way? I very confuse and headache...when I thinking back all the thing I really very suffer..why keep on like that? Does ken really do that before? I hope and I wish the answers is not..but in another way I also trust my sis...how? What I suppose to do now?

I really very angry till I have nothing to say...really don't know what to say...now is my sis told me this not other people..why will like that? If this thing is real what I need to do?